Much Better
Vanesa and I had a really nice talk today. It was the most blunt we’ve been with the situation yet the most comfortable we’ve felt in the last couple weeks. She too knows that the only peace we’ll have will be with the answer from God. She realizes that she cannot understand everything I’m going through yet is asking me to recognize how much thought she has put into any sacrifice she would have to make. No matter what happens, there will be no talk or consideration of a wedding in December–and that makes us both feel much better. We realized that time frame was chosen only because it would allow my family to travel more easily. Wanting to accommodate an event came before preparedness. We suddenly went from enjoying the relationship to a “Oh my gosh! I have to make everything perfect, get a visa, travel to the US, etc.” mentality. The inner conflict I’m facing and the rejection of her visa application were both gifts from God.
For now, I’m going to enjoy the trip and relax. Only a little over 6 days until I’m on home soil!
